Hi, my lovely friends!
With the days getting shorter and nights getting longer, it is hard to not get a little grumpy now and then. We are starting to loose out on some serious sun time and spending our days rushing around chasing something invisible. It is always so important to remember to be kind to yourself during this time, I know I personally forget to do so and often over-work or wire myself up so bad that I start to become blind to some pretty beautiful things around me.
(Boots - Ted&Muffy, Dress - M&S, Hat - Primark)
It is so funny to admit the fact that I am getting older, even though most of the time I still feel like such a kid who is stuck into the adult world pretending to be a grown up. But by saying that, I have realised a lot of things over the past few years that used to were the reason of many tears and sleepless nights during my teenage years. A hard but good lesson has been the fact that you don't have to be friends with everyone. You can genuinely choose to not be involved in some peoples lives just because they really are not your cup of tea. I used to thought, that almost every person who I meet has to be my friend. It wouldn't matter if the person was nice or not, if their jokes would make me laugh or if their jokes would make me die million slow deaths, I would still smile because, the fault clearly was not in them, but in me. And yes, it was exactly as exhausting as it sounds. Over the years, I have met so many people and realised that no matter how hard you will try to make it work, sometimes it just doesn't, and to be fair life already is exhausting most of the times...so, why would you commit this insanity of spending time with the people and working hard to get their approval, when instead you can spend your time with people who you can just be yourself around and actually relax. You as a person are not measured by how many friends you have or who they are.
That being said, even though you don't have to be best friends with the next person that walks through the door, that still does not give you the permission to be an a... to be rude. It is always so easy to be mean to people, to say harsh things or to just not be nice, and so if you are one, that does not make you special or gets you an award. What is hard, though, is smiling and being polite even though you are not having the best of days and one of the socks on your feet has come off so you have given up on life in generally. I always admire people, who despite having a not such a happy period in life, can find something to smile about and make others do the same. Over the past few years every day, no matter what the day I try to remind myself two things - to be kind and to be brave. And with writing this I am not aiming it towards anyone specific, or saying that I myself am perfect every day, because to be fair, I am far from it. I am trying to say the exact opposite - you do not need to be perfect, or be everyones friend. Even though its dark outside and your toes are cold, and you really do not feel like humaning, you just have to wake up, be kind to yourself and be kind to others. You just have to try your best.
So with that in mind, I hope that even though it is getting colder outside and we no longer see that much light during the day, that you still find your own joy, whether that is being with your family, finding the perfect pair of winter boots in store, or my personal favourite of walking through a park and stalking cute dogs!
And hey, it is only 59 sleeps till Christmas!