Hello my dear followers and those out there who occasionally drop by elegance lies and find themselves with nothing new to read!
I have to start with - I'm sorry and continue with a few sentences of some things that I've kept close to myself because, well... no normal person around me does really give big c..cup about my opinion on fashion (which is fine :D).
First of all, those who come here because of the pictures and never really read, I strongly advice you to just go back to twitter or Facebook or whatever way better you were doing, because this will most definitely not be interesting for some and, furthermore, some of you may strongly disagree with me, which is also perfectly fine.
Many of you come to me and ask me why I haven't blogged anything new yet and why I've stopped photographing, and to answer that question is never easy, because it is a sum of many, maaaany things altogether.
When I first started and when I first realised I'm interested in this crazy thing called fashion, I looked at it as a sort of a baby, no knowledge of it, no experience at all, however I was determined to find out as much as possible and after 2-3 years I've learned both - good and not so good lessons.
And on this occasion I will talk about those not so good lessons, because they are the answer to the post tittle and I think it is very important that you know it, my beautifuls.
The First thing that struck me is the amount of opportunities in fashion for young people like me, which is close to 0 (I'm not talking about design, because that is the first thing that comes to everyones mind when you say fashion).
What I mean is, although, Latvia is a small country and we have barely 2 m of citizens, it is admirable how many young, smart, driven and interested people I meet who would love to learn and gain experience in fashion styling, fashion marketing, merchandising, textiles, pattern making and many more. So, this is what I find ridiculous - There are no camps, no workshops, no discussion clubs no ANYTHING for such young people like me. There are only 2 ways(advertised) in which you can learn - ēnu diena and fashion week and in both of these occasions I've had only negative experience.
I think it was about 2 years ago I applied to be a shadow in Gints Bude model management to follow their PR person and learn what their job is about. I will forever remember I and 2 more girls sitting on a couch in their office and listening how the person x gossiped about the celebrities and models and the media, not giving us any real advice or anything about his work. So, I just sat there the whole time, imagining what I will eat for dinner and what show I will watch when I get back home, because I didn't come there to hear which model is a b...buttterfly and which tv channel has done something bad for the company, I came there to be interested in the subject, to be given advice on what a young person like us 3 girls should do if we ever wanted to pursue such career and every single time such question would come to the dudes hearing he would quickly change the subject. SO what was the whole point of it?! What I did learn was if I wanted to gain more experience in this matter I would have to find other opportunities myself( as they are not talked about, advertised or anything) and beg people to give me a chance, which I did.
SOOOO, a few days ago I saw this amazing thing ...
...that immediately made me remember my experience as intern during Riga Fashion Week.
I applied a month before it, because I figured out it's kind of a big event and they will need help no matter what, so I searched the net, like a stalker found an e-mail of someone working in fashion federation that were responsible of the event and wrote my email letter explaining how much I want to help, about my experience in NY and my future plans. Regarding on my many other experiences, I didn't even think my email will be looked at, even so answered, but I did receive my answer with an invitation to be an intern. I can't explain how happy I felt, because I did look at everything as a baby back then and to me it just seemed as something magical.
What did not seem magical at all to me was the things that followed...
I knew very well it's going to be stressful and crazy, but it never came to my mind it is going to be so...unprofessional. The 30 girls that had somehow gotten to be the interns for this fabulous event met together with our 3 bosses only 4 days before the event, where in almost no particular order we were given tasks to do, not even checking which one of us would be good for what, which one of us would be more useful( and i don't think by screaming - WHICH ONE OF YOU ARE FREE ON FRIDAY? is enough background check for the job).
So the few days before were spent cutting paper, giving out invitations, basically doing any little and dirty job that others didn't want to do, which is also again completely fine in my opinion. BUT as I went there to do my little tasks I found myself sitting only between 3-4 girls and the bosses, with their hands full running around like chickens with their heads cut off, screaming about not having enough time. I mean - you have 6 months to prepare for the event, you could have made someone do these little jobs way before the time and for flowers sake, you had 30 girls wanting to help you - where the heck were they now?
And such things like this kept happening - one the day for the big fashion shows to open at Radisson Blu Hotel I had the biggest fashion learning experience in my damn life. By that I was already used to not being told anything and figuring the craft myself as I went(which I also accepted and found completely normal after a while). So, as I came to my work at 8 finishing only at 4 the night before, I was supposed to help with setting up the catwalk, which is in my opinion the most important thing for a fashion show, because all the action happens on it. The thing that struck me first was - I have no experience in this, you give me scissors and a tape and tell me nothing and make me fix it with only 4-5 girls beside me - why are you screaming at me being a 30 something women(which imo is the age when you should already learn how not to act like a teenager) that it is not right and that we won't finish in time. I mean COME ON! You do this for what - 8th, 9th year and you couldn't organise the catwalk to be set at night before when the space is free, not 40 mins before the first show?! And you have done it before, don't you know how many people to put on the job! You are not paying us anyway, so use all of your resources!!
It was completely possible that the 4 girls, including me, were complete idiots and were challenged intellectually, but as it later came to my knowing, that way it happened every year since forever ago.
After this blissful week of fashion I went home with experience and much anger, but same as I felt completely ignored during my fashion week, I didn't feel like people be interested me blogging about it back then.
What did finally put the final touch to my anger was something way after the whole madness. I didn't expect to be payed or to be thanked, and actually I didn't need it, but what I did need was a letter saying I had done my work, I had done it well and I had learned stuff. Something that would only take 20 mins max - to open a new word document, to write 5 sentences with max 10 words in each and sending it to me. That was it. I didn't need it to feed my pride or to show off to my friends, I needed it to add to my university application, which is sort of important... long story short - I didn't get any letter, though I did get offered a place in university, but that's a completely different story.
So, my beautifuls, if such a big fashion house as Oscar de la Renta can appreciate their interns, but our Latvian management can't even write an email saying you've done your job, it makes you think, don't it?
Altogether, this is just a very small part of my reasons not to be so active in this, although my need to learn more, to gain more experience and grow and become something in this industry will never lessen. I still find it fascinating and besides these 2 experiences, I have gained many more, some of them positive, that will completely change the way I work. If I do happen to be someone important one day, they will be a reminder, that even a girl who makes coffee is a part of your work day and she is as equally important as you.
To sum this whole madness up, I want to just say that there are many things not right in Latvian fashion, and I could write a whole book on my observations, so I am apologising once again if some of you thought of this being a waste of time, but it is important for me.
Just to put it out there, this doesn't mean I won't blog anymore, though, I can't promise I'll do it actively.
AND - thank you everyone who find elegance lies interesting and misses it! I appreciate your kind words :)
Take care and never give up on your dreams!!!!
Always and forever yours,