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Hi, my friends,

Even though the Pandemic has put a pause on a lot of things around us, time definitely isn't one of them. It is rushing by as fast as ever. In this world where every day there is a new "semi-shocking to extremely shocking" piece of information to take in, it almost feels like we are chasing that one day of peace and normality. I worry that with everything going around us we will soon become numb to a lot of painful things. And news of mass deaths and murders will just be as normal to hear as "How are you?".    

Since I last wrote the world, my own and external, has changed(a little bit). In the outside world the lid has come off on some issues we as human race have hid and ignored either because we thought they weren't our issues or because it was just too much to deal with. In my personal "world" I have returned to work now a little while ago, my furlough only lasting three weird but necessary weeks.

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Hi, my dear friends,

Last time I wrote to you It had been my 4th week in self-isolation. Now I am approaching the two month mark of what I have now almost fully accepted as normal. It is such a surreal feeling, this new life that revolves around home, self-care, studying, staying connected to family and friends. Thoughts of work, office politics, London, plans, goals, worrying about other people and their opinions have been replaced by content, family, friends, my own needs and "wants". It is humiliating to me that only at nearly 27 I am waking up as a person and doing what my body needs. For first time, I am not only saying, but I am actually doing so -  living the truth of putting myself first as much as I can during this time. 

And no, it wasn't an easy transition, and it still isn't as I feel guilty for not working, for not thinking about work during and past work hours. As my brain had created this habit, of constant burn - go, go, go.  I feel guilty as I feel responsible to people and work left behind while I am being furloughed. But do I miss the act of it? Honestly? 

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Hi, my friends!

It's such a surreal feeling looking back at these photos and posting this now. Back then I wasn't aware of what the new life normal will be, then I was still worrying about pre-corona issues or planning my weekends ahead, as I was about to go to Portugal and not too late after that had planned to visit my family in Latvia for Easter. Safe to say, in a matter of just a few days I would be dealing with different issues with my plans cancelled and my life, same like everyone's - paused. 

Before this exploded, I managed to have my last trip to Portugal, and accidentally ran into some London friends there after noticing they were there on Instagram. The power of social media!

I was very excited to go to Lisbon. Sadly, or maybe luckily, it happened right before "lockdown". We all managed to see bits of the city and hide them away in the amazing memory box for later, but it was hard not to worry about what was happening in the world, and back home especially, wherever that would be for each of us. When I'm faced with a stressful situation, I try to approach it very analytically, and focus on things I can control. I knew that this was probably the last time in a long time I will be able to have the luck to explore a different, unseen part of the world. So, my approach was to deal with it one task at a time. As it felt like something too heavy to carry all at once. However, what we also saw was a city changing right before our eyes, becoming more quiet, empty and lonely by hour.